About weakness

I have been ill last week and stayed at home some days. What I hate about being ill is to cancel appointments and to call in sick. I always ask myself: Am I really feeling so bad that I am not able to do that? Because sometimes it's difficult to answer the question. Sometimes you just have to do things. Sometimes other people may get angry because of your cancellation. All this thinking and missing work or appointments always makes me feel bad about being ill. It's more relaxing when you definitely know that you are too ill to leave your bed...
But in the end it's always a decision about yourself and your own health and wellbeing. And in the end no one would like to make you suffer by not letting you stay at home. Usually people are nice and caring when you are sick. But it always seems like an excuse to me, cause you need reasons for your sickness.
But what you actually need is time to get better. Time without excuses. Time for yourself.

While being ill we have to deal with our weakness. Our body is not as strong as it is supposed to be. That's probably why we don't like being ill. It's in the times when we are pushed down by others, when you are losing, when we are sick that we are feeling weak. In society weakness is something negative which is not talked a lot about. We have to be strong, we have to work, no matter what. So we often ignore the signs of weakness.
The same happens when it comes to mental illness. People who have mental stress and difficulties are very often considered as weak.So illness can be even worse when other people can't see that you are struggling, cause it's happening inside of you. And it always seems that you need excuse for that. But actually you don't.
For me, saying that you are feeling weak and need a break, need someone who cares for you, need something which helps you, is always about being able to talk about your own needs. But before standing up for your needs you have to know what your needs are.

Beside that, feeling weak doesn't mean that you can't be strong. Feeling weak is a part of life. Life is fragile and if we do not accept weakness we do not accept real life. Everyone has made the experience of being weak. But no one wants to be weak. It's just sometimes you are weak because you were strong for too long...
And isn't it strong to admit that you are weak? Isn't weakness showing that you are a human, that you are vulnerable and fragile. Accept weakness and it will change into strength....Do not ignore the sign, maybe the weakness is telling you something about your needs.